It has now been one month since The Great Burnout of 2020. Even though it happened at the beginning of 2021, I still like to blame 2020 Lol.
The first week
This first week I spent the entire time at home on the couch. I slept most of the time, ate rarely. I was just so tired and ashamed. I knew I couldn’t go back to work but I had no idea how to tell anyone. I had no idea how to explain. I booked an appointment with my doc but he couldn’t see me for two week.
This week I started to really stress. I was coming back from my senses and realized I had no way to pay my bills without my job! I also knew that I couldn’t be healthy if I went back there. What was I going to do?!? This is where my family really stepped up. I opened up to them about what was happening and my mom, dad and sister were there for me for near-daily phone calls. They assured me that I always had somewhere to go if I needed it. They reminded me I was strong. And they encouraged me to follow my dreams.
Somewhere in week three I started to feel more like myself. I wanted to do EVERYTHING. I wanted to travel, to write, to do photography, to teach english, to go back to university. You know, my normal chaotic and impulsive self lol.
I had a lot of ideas but barely able to do anything about them. Because as quickly as I got wound up, I would tire and need to lay down.
This week is even better than the last. I am having bouts of inspiration. I am able to sit at my computer long enough to write a full blog post! (Okay full disclosure I am laying on my couch writing this). I applied to university. And I finally gave notice at my job that I wouldn’t be returning.
After seven years with the company this was a hard decision to make. With no solid future plans this was an even HARDER decision to make. I am glad it is finally made though and I can continue forward, into the unknown…
Please be patient with me. I will have more posts to come. Travel, food, life. I had to remind myself that the blog was MY place. To share my thoughts. To be myself.
But for now I have used up my energy reserves for today. Sleep well friends!